nothing i cant handle

something i keep telling myself.

a late friend said to me

i am quiet about the things i care about

and i said to him

it is because i care that i speak nothing of

it confused him as would it to people who read this

well..

it is because i fully acknowledge them that i dont tell

why knit pick if you accept them?

why do so if you love them?

and as cliche as this sounds, nothing is perfect.

that is why we bare the pain that come along with loving a person.

we dare not think of losing them

because in our hearts it is not an option.

we love and we create a bubble for them

containing who they are... as they are

that is how we love them.

on the other hand never let love become a burden as then we only focus on the distressings and that overtakes the love we have.

so at times you just have to say to yourself its nothing you cant handle..

truth hurts but that is how it works

Ouch Charlie

:D

would have been

should have been

been on my mind for awhile

it was supposed to be the most memorable month, this upcoming month

ohh well

what happens, happens

embrace life

to me, to you

30th of May

counting the days...

You will only fail...

if you fail to see..

those who love you...

those who know you..

those who understand you..

those who will forgive you..

those who cherish you..

those who advise you..

those who are wise..

those who prise..

those who stand strong of themselves and also you..

you will only fail when you don't give back...

I feel like slipping away for just this moment..

Momentarily be in your world by myself....

This instant just feels different....

this time the tied rope has loosen...

blasting music in my ears lets me escape....

you're on your way..

i'm staying here..

turn around...

and free you...

within twenty-four hours i might never see this significant person ever again.

this person has been long gone but will officially leave my life..

of course it is not easy but i figure it is best..

Having someone come into your life and made a change and think they can leave whenever..

leave...

and never come back..

it doesnt hurt anymore but it just brings me to tears thinking about the good times we had..

you ask me to forget about everything, it is not something i can erase..

i dont know how you do it but go ahead.. keep in mind that i am different, i will remember all the hate, love and laugh you've brought me..

i shall never forget because i take things and learn from them, i dont choose to run away.. atleast not anymore

this is me facing my biggest fear of losing one more person......

Two More days :D

But whats the difference? mehh

Things are starting to change which is a good thing:)

never the less i will miss the old times and the people..

So two more days and i will officially never see him ever again.

Not a bad thing.

Not that i hate him.

It is for the best:)

I've been so happy for the last 72 hours people are starting to wonder if i hit my head over the weekend:p

LOVING LIFE AND LOVING THE DAYS:)

16/05/11

30 days until the mid year exams.

I dont know how to feel..

its not the only thing on my mind right now...

i look back and look in to the future...

these few weeks are going to be a living hell..

too much thinking, too many emotions..

letting go of one person is hard enough i have to go through two..

i feel like shit, i know there are more out there that are more unfortunate that i am and would probably tell me to get over it but it is hard.

im finding myself crying over people who have long left me..

But i am strong enough to stand right where i am and held on for a period of time..

I will not let go just learn to live without as things will change and i will be happy